the little world inside my head

an architecture student and a dreamer. this is my Lala Land.

· 25/11/11 · 143441 · Reblog

Mari Introspeksi diri. Pernahkah kamu merasa kurang bersyukur? That you don’t notice the great things that you’re blessed with? Sometimes we only see the bad things that happens in our lives that it overshadows the good things that are happening.

I recently felt that slap of reality. Where all I was doing is whine and fuss about every bad or hard situation that I had to face. Ends of terms are always hectic, bombarded with all tasks and deadline. Yes, it is tiring and exhausting and all was doing is pointing that out. I was stuck in a situation where I didn’t enjoy anything that i had to do or finish, but was too late to back out. I had a choice to finish up like a grown-up young women, tackle all of them calmly one by one or be a big brat and complain about it. Yes, i didn’t know better, i did the latter. That was bad, but what’s worse was i dragged someone else with me. I was tired and cranky and let it out to someone else. I had no clue what i was really doing, what was the impact of it. Until yesterday.

I tend to worry too much and get panicky when the going gets tough. To deal with it i let it out on somebody, which i shouldn’t. I worry about things that could happen or would happen, when i shouldn’t. I let what other people think of me overshadows my judgement, when i shouldn’t. it was unhealthy really. But i had no idea. Someone yesterday slapped some sense in me. He cared enough to tell me how it is. Didn’t covered it with some sweet words but just let it out open. Wasn’t a nice feeling but it was true. I was furious, but it was true. I somehow still denied it, but it was true. 

In tough situations like this, I was lucky enough to have people that still actually cares. I’m blessed with  a beautiful family that’ll take me mend me cheer me up in any stake i am in. and I promised someone that i would turn my back to the whiny little tera inside me. In tough situation like this, things could be worse. Yes, it’s tough, but it’ll be all over. Ini hanya hal kecil yang harus aku lewati. A little hole in the long road. Terima kasih ya Allah Engkau masih menyayangiku dengan mengelilingiku dengan orang-orang baik. terima kasih. I’ll try to stay strong.

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